Max

2013

October 25, 2013
Missed By: Rob

My sweet Max

My sweet Max. Words could never describe the pain my heart is in since Friday night. It thought it was going to be just another normal day for us Friday, but I knew something was wrong today. You didn't get up with me like always, and you weren't hungry. You were panting heavy the past few days. When i took you to the doctor, I didn't know what to do. They said you may be sick. I was confused. I didn't want to hurt you. I loved you with all my heart since the day I held you in Iowa. I decided to put you to a final rest. Today I sit here with a broken heart. I'm not even sure I did the right thing. I know I should have acted earlier with you breathing problem. Max, I was afraid to put you through the surgery. Now I regret it so much. I think I may have failed you. The one thing in life I knew I could count on was you, and I failed you. I'm so sorry. I hope you are not mad at me. I am feeling so guilty now. I loved you so much the past 12 1/2 years. You were my best friend. You loved me soo much. I loved you back just as much. I'll always treasure our walks Max. Those were a blast. Remember nardolillo street. You'd jump down those steps off the deck, so eager and happy to walk with me. At river farm, we were best buddies walking those streets every day. Even at home now, it was small, but we went out to E. G. Ave alot. I miss those days so much now. Remember our play fights. You'd always win, however you never hurt me. You play bite was so gentle. I know your greatest joy was to sit next to me and just hang.. Little did you know, I was the one getting all the joy. I'm trying to move on a little now. I have your ashes in our bedroom. I keep you close to me because that's what makes me happy. I miss you my best friend. I don't think my heart will ever mend totally. Please don't be mad at me. I'm going to see you again,I promise. I can't wait for that day. After I tell you that I'm sorry, I'm going to give you the biggest hug you've ever received from me. And this time, I'm never going to let go. I Love you max, Thanks for loving me so much, and being my best friend. See you at the rainbow bridge. Your buddy, Rob..