Honeydew

2004

November 04, 2004
Missed By: Daddy, Grandma, Poppa, & Noel

For Dewey from Daddy

Eight years now, he has been there for me. A little white shadow following my every move. Through the "dark years" of my life when even all but one of my friends abandoned me, he was there. Always giving affection and love. I took it for granted and now I am about to lose the only true constant I have had for almost a decade.
There is no negative emotion that he could not remove from me. Never judging me. He knows me as no one else in the world does and noone ever will again. No walls, no defenses, just Emilio.
I have also learned much more that I ever thought I could from him. Even though he does not speak (with words) I am better because of him.
I know what unconditional love is through his eyes. Soon I will never feel him curled up in my lap, laying next to me under the covers on a cold night, or running to great me when I get home from work again. All that will be left is the memory of the most wonderful thing I have ever had in my life.
I dreamed of coming home to see him playing with my children. I wanted them to know him and let him bring the joy he gave me into their lives. That will never happen now. I do not yet have children and I am going to lose him.
For the remainder of his life, I will do everything I can to make sure he feels no pain caused by his condition and only feels the love that I have for him.
In the end he will always be alive in my heart.
My loyal friend honeydew. I love you and I will never forget you.

I love you and miss you very much, and I always will, Dadd
Dewey

SOFT WHISPER
My best friend spoke to me last night
a soft whisper in my ear.
I woke up and looked around the room,
I was startled, yet I had no fear.
My best friend said that all is fine
Rainbow bridge is so much more.
That there was so much love up there,
even a beautiful ocean shore.
There are fields and fields of green green grass
and the sky has different shades of blue.
There are flowers, mountains, trees and clouds,
everything they said it was, is true.
My best friend whispered in my ear last night
saying "Please don't cry or be sad.
That what was done, had to be done,
for me to live my life now, so be glad".
My best friend said that I did the right thing
an unselfish act on my part.
And that this pain & sadness I feel
will be gone soon from my heart.
I asked my best friend "How could this be
I miss you so much everyday.
That my heart hurts so much for you,
I wish there could of been another way".
My best friend whispered in my ear last night
"You will always be in my heart.
Go on & live and love another,
because we will never really be apart".
My best friend whispered in my ear last night
"it's time for me to go towards the light.
I just wanted to stop & say to you
"Go on my best friend, I'll be alright".
"I carry your unconditional love with me
I have done this from the very start".
I whispered back to my best friend last night,
"I'll always love you with all my heart."
So good-bye my best friend as I looked up at the sky
a shooting star I see in a straight line.
Moving fast across the sky & out of sight,
I whispered,
"Good -bye my best friend, now, I'll be fine".
I love you and miss you so much, my beautiful baby boy,
my little best friend always, Grandma