Venus

2008 - 2025

Venus, neenus, neenee, Neen, bean, my heart, my shadow, my comfort through every high and low. From the moment she came into my life, she brought a love and a companionship that’s impossible to put into words.
When I met her, I was only 24 and she was a freshly imported feral puppy from Taiwan. She had CDV and All my nsal peeps remember her as the Taiwan pup or R117717. She was so afraid of everything and everyone. No one could touch her. Venus and I connected on a level I can’t say I’ve had with any other soul in this lifetime. Slowly, I gained her trust. She didn’t know how to dog, and I didn’t know how to human. When I would take her outside once, she was feeling better to “touch grass”, she’d just fall over. I promised her that I’d never give up on her and took her home. I wasn’t even sure she wanted that, but day by day, we grew on one another. She didn’t leave my side. Fast forward to her going to be with Marie and being the reason we reconnect years later.
Seventeen years is a long time, but it will never be long enough. She grew with me, changed with me, and loved me unconditionally through every chapter. I don’t remember who I was before her—and I know I’ll never ever be the same without her. She brought us together and grew with us. She raised Charlotte with us.
I know I can speak for others when I say she has touched many peoples lives and has been there for them when they needed someone the most. She had such a quiet wisdom that calmed the scariest of times and she was always my soft place to land in this hard world. In any tough situation, she would be by my side throwing her head under my hand and comforting me. I could really use that right now.
She leaves behind an imprint on my soul, and an emptiness that only time and memory can attempt to soften, - but I know it won’t.
I will forever miss her soft eyes, her happy face and tail when I walked in the door, her quiet presence beside me that always made the world feel a little less heavy and her palpable energy that drifted away with her.
The days without her are unbearably heavy and for once, I’m going to have to feel it.
Run free, my sweet girl. The best girl. The kindest soul. My heart dog, my soul friend. You were, and always will be, so deeply loved. You are so much of me Venus - So very much. I will miss you for the rest of my life and love you always. I’m so sorry you couldn’t stay forever. I know you would have. I only hope you understand how much you are loved.